You guys have NO idea how excited I am to be writing this blog today. I'm sure you noticed that I haven't blogged much AT ALL in 2011, and I assure you there's a reason. 2010 was such an awesome year for me. I turned 30 and resolved that it would be the best year of my life. God spoke to me like never before and I felt freedom like I'd longed to experience my whole life.
Then 2011 came....How could this year measure up to the last? I found myself racked with uncertainty, and I went through a long period in which it seemed God didn't speak at all. I still clung deeply to the truths God had poured into me last year, but over time even those wonderful words seemed to become more and more quiet. I went back to work, and life got busier. I found myself resorting back to some unhealthy habits I had developed long ago.
The worst of such habits was my tendency to overeat. When I was a child, I found going to school each day very stressful. Being a homebody by nature, being away from the familiarity of home would bring great uneasiness inside. Don't get me wrong, I LOVED school, and learning, but hated being away from home all day. I have to admit, not a lot has changed!:) I still love being at home! The problem with this picture is that as a child, I developed the habit of overeating as soon as I got home. I would melt away the day's stress by indulging in whatever food I could get my hands on. To this day, when things get stressful, or I don't feel the security I feel in my home, I turn to food.
I think it's time we call it for what it is you guys! Overeating is a
disorder. Just like not eating, eating too much is a pattern of disordered eating. Unfortunately, in the church today this disorder is widespread and often ignored. I believe that Satan has fooled many Christians into trusting food rather than God.
Now, here's what I'm so excited to share with you...what God has been sharing with me.
We can be completely and totally fulfilled with God!If you're like me, at first you look past this truth, thinking "there's got to be more to it"! I've heard this sort of message since I was a child...nothing new here. But when you really let these words sink in, there is incredible power in them. Ecclesiastes 3:11 says God "has put eternity in our hearts". That's the cry of our hearts, to be HOME. I'm not talking about the place you sleep and eat and watch TV. I'm talking about Heaven, the place where the deepest desire of our beings is fulfilled when we are forever in God's presence. Nothing on this earth is ever going to fill that longing in my heart that only eternity can fill.
This is big for me, you guys! It's my prayer for you today that God will reveal just how much He loves you! May your hearts be FULL with His goodness!
More to come! Be blessed!
